It’s been a Monday. But you know what? When I am at my weakest point, that’s when God is at His strongest, and isn’t that so encouraging to know? (2 Corinthians 12:9)
So from one stressed out, overly-caffeinated, college kid, here’s a letter God put on my heart because I need someone to say it to me.
Numbers do not define you.
Your GPA does not define you.
Your bank account does not define you.
Your weight does not define you.
The number of likes on your Instagram does not define you.
The number of boys who talk to you does not define you.
The number of friends you have does not define you.
This world does not define you.
Let me be honest. I don’t always believe that. And old habits die hard – especially when you’re as stubborn as I am.
But listen to me.
That voice in your head that says you’re a failure is lying.
You look in the mirror, and all you see is flaws. I know I do. I look at myself, and I see everything I’m not.
“I’m not pretty enough. I’m not smart enough. I’m not kind enough. I’m not good enough. I’m not talented enough. My eyebrows look like Hermione Granger (pre-puberty – we’re talking Movie 1 here people.) I’m not enough.”
The list goes on.
And it’s easy for me to feel like that.
But you know what’s truly beautiful?
Even though all I see is flaws, God sees His masterpiece. Why? Because I’m not all I say I’m not. I am all He says I am.
And God, the Creator and King of The Universe, says:
You are loved. (John 3:16, I mean really the whole Bible…)
You are fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalms 139:14)
Your body is a temple. (1 Corinthians 6:19)
You are His treasure. (Ephesians 2:10)
You are a princess. (1 Peter 2:9)
You are a child of God. (Galatians 3:26)
There are no exceptions. There is no disclaimer. There is no “but.” There is only grace.
When you haven’t slept in two days and you look like you survived the zombie apocalypse because the bags under your eyes have reached full-blown Gucci status – God thinks you are beautiful still.
When you run away from God and try to be Olivia Pope and handle everything by yourself – God says He’s still with you.
When you’re lost and alone and afraid and feel like you’re failing everything and everyone around you – God says He’s never going to leave you nor forsake you. He’s in it with you.
When you fail a test, when your face decides an acne invasion is in order, when you embarrass yourself, when you cry for no reason, when you fail and when you fall – God is still holding on to you, whispering “It’s OK. Give me your burdens. Give me your worries. I care about you. You are so special. You are so loved.”
It’s hard to listen for that comfort. It’s hard to be still and trust God. I know. Believe me, friend, I know.
But God, who knows the number of hairs on your head and the number of fears in your heart, is with you always. He never stops loving you. Never. Even when you mess up. And you can’t earn His love. He just loves you because He’s God and that’s who He is and what He does.
So stop comparing yourself to other people. Because God made you to be exactly who you are.
Who cares if some boy doesn’t like you? Boys do not define you. Jesus does.
Who cares if you didn’t do so hot on that test? Your grades do not define you. Jesus does.
Who cares if that girl/boy is prettier or smarter or has more than you? Life isn’t a competition. God made you to be YOU. And that is pretty awesome, OK?
So maybe I’m not Emma Watson. Maybe I’m not Olivia Pope. Maybe I’m just Alli.
And I am a HOT MESS 99.9 percent of the time. But you know what? God made me for a purpose. And I just have to be patient enough for Him to show me. And even though I can’t see my worth, Jesus tells me I’m worth His life. And Jesus is not a liar.
So you know what? It’s OK to have doubts about yourself sometimes. Because let’s be real. I am a sinner, and on my own, I would never be good enough for Jesus.
The good news is that it’s not about me. It’s about Jesus. And His love and sacrifice saves us and redeems us and restores us and cleans us and makes us pure and clean.
So you know what?
Just being Alli is enough. You are enough. Please know that.
The same God that made mountains and sunsets and ice cream made YOU, OK?
And that is pretty stinking awesome.