Enjoy.

Hi, friends. It’s been forever since I’ve posted, but I’m hoping to improve that soon.

Life Church challenges us to pick one word to focus on this year, and I encourage everyone to try this. For me, my word is “enjoy.”

Instead of having a single Bible verse to explain my theme, I focused on a story in Luke 10:38-42, where Jesus visits Mary and Martha.

Martha is excited to host Jesus, and she spends all day striving to make everything perfect. Mary, on the other hand, laughs and chats with Jesus while her sister is busy cleaning and cooking.

Martha grows resentful and voices her concern to Jesus, but He explains that what Mary is doing is more important – focusing on the eternal.

It’s easy to criticize Martha in the story because Jesus, the Savior of the world, is chilling in her living room, and she’s too busy to spend time with Him.

Silly Martha, right? I mean, why on earth would you let something so temporary distract you from Jesus? Especially when He is right there in your house.

But.

I am Martha.

How many times do I allow myself to get so busy in the temporary things of this world that I forget what’s really important?

How many times do I skip my quiet time because I’m “too busy?” How many times do I treat prayer as another check on my to-do list instead of enjoying my time with The Lord?

The truth is…I am Martha in more ways than I like to admit. I am the Type A, OCD, classic perfectionist who loves being busy. I am task-oriented, and I am always thinking about what needs to be done instead of enjoying the process.

And sometimes, that’s OK. Being a Martha isn’t always a bad thing. But Jesus wants me to have the heart of Mary more than the actions of Martha.

Jesus doesn’t need my feeble, futile attempts to be perfect. Jesus wants me, my time and my heart exactly as it is. He doesn’t love me as I ought to be but rather as I am.

Broken. Scattered. Imperfect. Flawed.

So I don’t want to be empty this year, filling myself with meaningless accomplishments. Let my life not be defined by awards but by a sincere love of others. Let me not be so wrapped up in my own little world that I forget to worship the One who made me.

This year, I want to ENJOY.

And enjoying means having a positive attitude in all circumstances. It means loving people. It means experiencing life and understanding that each part of the process is beautiful.

This year, I want to be still and listen.

My mom told me once that God speaks in whispers, but we want Him to shout. And I think that explains why I become so easily frustrated.

I look for God in big things, but I never open my eyes to watch His work in the little, everyday aspects of life.
Sometimes, God does reveal Himself in huge ways. But most of the time, I think God gives us tiny clues that show He is Immanuel – God with us.

Maybe it’s a smile from a stranger. Maybe it’s encouragement from a friend. Maybe it’s the right song at the right time. Maybe it’s that voice in your head that whispers “it’s OK. You can do this.”

So enjoy. I want to deny the parts of myself that crave perfection and structure. Life is messy and busy and crazy and flawed, but that’s what makes it beautiful.

This year, I am on a journey to enjoy because I am happy. I am healthy. I am whole. I am loved. I am forgiven. I am made new. In my weakness, God is made stronger. And that is something to celebrate.

This year, I hope to fall in love with life. I hope to let the little things matter because they do. I hope to remember that success is quietly beautiful. Happiness isn’t some magical moment you achieve someday, it’s an attitude that you can hold in your heart at every moment.

Each day is another chance to be the person God created you to be. Each day is a gift, even when you want to return it.

Life is laughter with your best friends. Life is midnight pizza and messy rooms. Life is tears that show you’ve loved to the point where you can be broken. Life is an Oklahoma sunset, a Texas sunrise and a New York City skyline. Life is saturated in grace and mercy by a God who died to show how much we mean to Him.

Life is beautiful. And I hope I remember to enjoy it.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s